My own poetry

Have you ever....(17/11/99)

Have you ever wanted someone so much, to the Devil you would sell your soul?.

Have you ever yearned for someone so badly, your life seems like a deep dark hole?.

In my heart, mind and spirit, forever you will be with me,

but deep down inside, phisically, I ache for you, in a place you will never be.

Have you ever felt that you knew someone, in another time, another place, another life maybe?.

You feel that you know this person, and if we should ever meet,

you would know that I was meant for you, and you were meant for me.

Have you ever loved someone so much, that you pray everyday to see?,

to have and to hold, to lay beside, that your love holds the eternal key.

Have you ever been in torment, by wanting someone so desperately, that you cannot obtain?,

that it wouldn't matter if your life ended, because at least you would be out of your pain.

Have you ever dared want someone, that you believe in fairytales and wildest dreams,

that you truly believe that fate and destiny will play it's part, you know exactly what I mean.

Have you ever laid there in the deepest, darkest hours of the night, thinking you are going mad?,

because you know that all your wishing, dreaing and hoping, just really makes you feel sad.

Have you ever thought to yourself, that if God offered you 100 years of life, settling for second best?,

or the Devil offered you one year with the one you really love?, I know I would fail the test.

Have you ever wondered if this unobtainable love and desire will ever end?,

this crazy, mad yearning, over someone that's not even your friend.

Have you ever tied yourself in knots,over a love that can't be yours?, I've cried a million tears.

You hope and dream your life away, and take it out on the ones that have loved you for years.

Have you ever felt like a teenager, with an infatuation over someone that can never be yours?,

even though I am at an age where I should know better, I obviously don't of course!.

Have you ever lived your life, staying with someone you don't really love anymore,like I do?,

because the one you can't have, the one you really love, would never be interested in you.

Have you ever wished the pain would go away, loving someone who doesn't even know you exist?.

I can only hope that you would understand?, I'm sending you this with the whole of my heart,and with a loving kiss.

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I can't believe what has happened

I can't believe what has happened right before my eyes,

a man has slipped into my every thought, a wonderful kind of guy.

Where in my mind were negative thoughts, the cobwebs have been swept away, I

look at the world through different eyes, a new wonder for every day.

For the first time ever in my life I'm not frightened of how I feel,

I can tell him what I really think and know it's no big deal.

Thank you for being there, for coming like a calm river into my life,

for making me look at things so differently,

for putting warm feelings in me, instead of the usual storm and strife.....

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What I want

I want my fingers to reach out and touch you,

I want your hand enveloped tightly around mine.

I want to have these feelings for you always,

forever wouldn't be a too long a time.

I want your lips gently to kiss me,

I want your arms to embrace me soon,

Just to think that maybe one day you could have these feelings too,

would make my heart fly over the moon.

I want to love and hold you forever,

I want you to know how much I care,

I just want you to believe in me

and know that I would always be there.

I want my head on your shoulder,

I want us to whisper in each others ear,

I want our bodies passionately entwining,

But most of all, I want you to know I'm sincere

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I can't let you go.

I can't let you go,

but I can't make you stay,

If I tell you how I feel,

you will just turn away.

Why do I have to be quiet

about the way I feel?.

Is that I love you so

really such a big deal?.

I just can't say goodbye,

no matter how hard I try,

I really need you in my life,

inside, without you, I would die.

I can't walk away,

you mean so much to me,

I need you in my world,

you are my every dream.

Just accept me for who I am,

a woman that loves you so,

no matter what you do,

I will never let you go.

I've asked nothing from you,

not even love in return.

Just let me love you true,

don't take away my yearn.

I'll love you 'til the day I die,

I'll love you wether or not you're in my life.

I'll love you no matter what you do,

just remember forever that I love you.

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I believed in you

I believed you when you told me that you loved me,

I believed you when you told me that you cared.

Finally I could let down all of my barriers,

I could love someone at last more than I'd dared.

I believed that I had finally gotten my own fairytale,

I gave my heart and soul, my everything to you.

Wanting someone the way I did with such passion,

I tried to stop it, but there was nothing I could do.

You made my heart sing, my mind think and my body ache,

you made me follow you around in a rose coloured haze,

but then the walls came crashing down around me,

now I am left alone, walking and living in a daze.

The would be lover, is no longer even a friend now,

the man I love has swapped me for someone new,

but darling, you will be in my heart and soul forever,

if you ever have any dark days?,

be consoled that I'll still be loving you.

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